.MONDAY.310308.

i admit. sensitivity is in me. i cried every now and then thinking of how i'll be working tomorrow. i cried every now and then thinking of how life is soooo freaking unfair and i cried every now and then thinking of why i am the one who have to suffer with all sorts of ridiculous obstacles that is hard to pull through. where did i really went wrong to deserve such places? tell me. where did i went wrong? sigh.

oh forget it. i won't get the answer anyway.

im done here.

.SUNDAY.300308.

when i was a school student still, i used to treat my weekends like only weekends. they're only days for you to rest or to enjoy after your five days of studying in school. but ever since i became a working person, my saturdays and sundays really meant a whole truck that full of golds in it. seriously. my weekends are not only weekends. i really have to make a full good used of it. especially after my hell moments at work, my saturdays and sundays are heaven to me.

so people, if you do have any plans on weekends, please. don't ever hesistate to not invite me okay? haha.

cheers.

.SUNDAY.300308.

people claimed to understand how im feeling whenever im down. people claimed to understand that they know how it feels like to be on the path where i don't want to. but how can they claimed to understand when they're not going through the same thing like i did? how can they claimed to understand on how it feels like to be seperated from their friends when they're surrounded with them? they only claimed to understand. but do they really mean it? do they really know how it feels like to be forced to separate with everyone else? sigh.

i just came to realise that sometimes, not even your closest friends understands you. and that only you understands yourself better.

im off.

.SATURDAY.290308.

i'll blog. right after i change a few things in my blog.

chao.

.WEDNESDAY.260308.

jon was pathetic.

his eyes was red when he punch in for work. and mind you its not any kind of ordinary red. it was really pure red. seriously.

jon: your email got any enquiry?

me: nope.*long pause*. why your eyes soo red?

jon: oh. i wear contact lens wrongly.

well. so much of his contact lens. i smelled alcohol on him when he let out his breath on me. he took a half day leave and left juliana and me alone doing all the quotation.

me: ju. i can't find what jon quote.

juliana: don't know lah him. he blind arr.

me: haha. can tell with his red eyes around.

juliana: aiya. when he drinks, his eyes will always turn red.

ha! so much of his contact lens. lols!

humans. they're born to be great liars at times.

oh wells. im off. nights.

.TUESDAY.250308.

work was hell.

the stupidest mistake that i can ever done at work was never to double check my work.

im not surprise if my working clique starts to shut their gaps by not talking to me for days. seriously.

and hell. it is true.

im the biggest dissapointment in this little place call world. sigh.

.TUESDAY.250308.

this song is special mainly, from me to you. (:

[ Intro: ]
Look.. I know we've been friends for a while now..
But, I just feel like I can confess to you..
It's gonna be hard but..
Alright here it goes...

[ Verse 1: ]
Imagine that the pillow that you cried on was my chest,
and the tissue that you wiped your face with was my hand
Girl imagine if you needed advice about some other guy,
I'm the one that comes to mind
Not tryna' hear you tell nobody that I'm just a friend,
just trying to make sure I'm that body that you call your man,
and anytime you need a shoulder,
It shows not a day, but what I'm tryna' say is, I wanna be...

[ Chorus: ]
The last number you call late at night,
first one that you dial when you open your eyes...
Wanna be the one you run to, wanna be one that ain't gon' hurt you,
I wanna be him, I wanna be yea..
Be the man makin yo girls jealous,
be the guy that's shuttin' down all the fellas..
whatever you need, girls it's all me..
Your soldier your friend or your lover, girl, I wanna be...

[ Verse 2: ]
Would it be cool, would you mind if I called you ma boo,
what if the next whip you was pushin' was the one I bought for you?
Can I be the one that meets your pops
and take your mama shoppin', i'll be the only one they like.
Have you thought about it,
wait, really thought about it?
Maybe you should take some time call your girls and talk about it, yeah.
Cuz' I done already made up my mind,
don't need no more time to know if I wanna be with you, I wanna be...

[ Chorus: ]

[ Verse 3: ]
Put me on your screen saver, all over your myspace and,
make me one of your top favorites, that's where I wanna be...
The one you cryin' for, (stayed up all night fightin' for) wanna be your good, bad, love, hey girlll..
Cross my heart hope to die,
on everything that's good,
I'mma do you right, show you right, get this understood.
Cross my heart hope to die,
on everything thats good,
I'mma do you right show you right, get this understood...

[ Chorus ]
The last number you call late at night,
first one that you dial when you open your eyes...
Wanna be the one you run to, wanna be one that ain't gon' hurt you,
I wanna be him, I wanna be yea..
Be the man makin yo girls jealous, be the guy that's shuttin' down all the fellas..
whatever you need, girls it's all me..
Your soldier your friend or your lover, girl, I wanna be...

Girl I wanna be, I wanna be.... sigh.. I wanna be, I wanna be...

.MONDAY.240308.

her: eh. i ask you eh. what do guys like for his birthday gifts the most?

me: oh! you're buying for me is it?

her: nope. erm....... for my brother. his birthday coming around june.

oh please! im not dump you know. everyone in this world would knew who you would buy a gift for with the long pause you had. prft. im jealous. i admit. whats sooo good about him anyway? a 21 year old guy who talks to other girls in the middle of the night when you don't know he actually did. a 21 year old guy who's not even commited to you. and a 21 year old guy who's not even really into you. prft.

whats the point. you're preety. but you're not making a good use of what you have. sigh.

the more jealous i am is when to more im falling for you.

.MONDAY.240308.

i was told that new zealand and australia are having their holiday today. so that explains why i was having much free moments during work today. sigh. whatever to that.

on a brighter note. i've gotten my salary baby! haha. i need to get new clothes and new accesories right after work this coming friday. hair is a must to be cut but i don't intend to dye yet though. not till i bom my atm card. haha.

oh wells. im off.

bye. (:

.SUNDAY.230308.

ite holidays starts tomorrow.

which of course. also means that i have to attend to work for the whole 3 tuesday. prft.

i better off to bed. don't want to get heavy eyelids tomorrow do i? haha. nights homies.

and oh! new url is up.

http://divulgeinhisperplexity.blogspot.com

i like! (:

bye.

.SUNDAY.230308.

okay. my workplace is like one hell of a fucker. seriously.

its already the 23rd of march and i have not yet receive any salary from them when im supposed to yesterday. kns. i was already hoping for my salary to come in since thursday but hell i have not yet receive even a single cent. already my working moments are like hell. and to think of not receiving any cents after my hell moments is so unfair. sigh. this is soo shitty. prft.

.SUNDAY.230308.

there! public! haha. (:

i'll change my url later. somewhere in the afternoon.

don't worry. i'll inform alllllllllllll of you.

and this time. i'll blog

whatever i want.

whatever i want.

and WHATEVER I WANT.

cheers! (:

.SUNDAY.230308.

step up 2 was a total blast! everything was beautiful. the dance move, the songs, the storyline, oh! they're just freaking awesome. feedbacks from people saying step up 2 was mundane are just plain dumb! its either they're not into these kind of movies or they don't understand at all. seriously. (:

outing with joyce yesterday was cool. though its only two but whatever. its still fun anyway. at least someone keep their words. (:

im done here.

.SATURDAY.220308.

god. i just realise. i have yet to change my url. haha!

i will. the first thing i'll do right after i came home from the outing later.

for now.

cheers! (:

.SATURDAY.220308.

the initial plan was to head out with 4. but however. 2 turn down the plan and left with two. yes. joycelyn and me is heading out. to where? i don't know. lets all hope, that the outing will be a total blast one.

.FRIDAY.210308.

okay. im pissed. totally.

whats with them behaving like a total babarians? i mean. come on. we've been planning this outing since 2 weeks back. yes. 2 weeks. and what happens when your friends turns plain bitchy? " i got fnn to clear up and i don't think i can make it". " i got history and social studies to clear up" cb!

if you knew that you cannot make it earlier, please! stop giving high hopes. don't go around boosting on the fact that we are actually heading out this coming saturday when you're actually cancelling the plan.

kns!

.THURSDAY.200308.

monday was with shafiqah. (:

i ace my test on tuesday. 42/50. baik kaper?! hahah.

wednesday was hell. im soo used to getting humilated infront of my working cliques. cb!

thursday was another hell.

jon: juliana never come today.

me: huh? really arh?

jon: yup. you go and clear all her emails today.

prft. another cb!

but on a lighter note, dafiqa taunt at my house today! haha. (:

.SUNDAY.160308.

and today is sunday. which of course, also means that tomorrow, i'll be back to square one. sigh.

ite holidays starts next week. and for the whole 3 tuesdays, i have to drag my feet off to work. now tell me. what on earth is fair again? prfft.

whatever it is, lets all hope that our first day of the week, would be alright. sigh.

.SATURDAY.150308.

she went out on a date with a 21 year old guy today.

now tell me. how can i not get jealous again? prft.

.SATURDAY.150308.

okay. its saturday. and staying-at-home-to-rot-by-doing-nothing is really such a kill. seriously.

the sun is blazing hot today. and it makes a temptation of heading down to sentosa to tan. seriously. whats more fun with enjoying around with your friends in this kind of weather at the beach? sigh.

im missing everyone. badly. ):

.FRIDAY.140308.

today was fun.

i met up with ahmad, joyce, adem and lynno and hell we went to the same place where me, adem and lynns went before. yes. that lakeside park. haha. it was beautiful. though i wasn't really enjoying the breeze and the sea, but the atmosphere itself with best friends was really remarkable. i love my bestest best friends and yes. i do. (:

special thanks to them for making this late-night-picnic-trip a memoriable one. thanks ahmad for the finger licking good chicken curry. thanks adem for the mat, the rice and the cool milo. thanks joyce for the bread and the 'papedem' or whatever you spell it. and thanks lynns for the tibits. as for me, my presence only would be enough right? haha. i know. lols.

lets have this kind of outing more often alright bestfriends?

cheers! (:

.THURSDAY.130308.

thursday was fine. somehow.

i came home early and went to bed right after i took my shower. my eyelids was already half dropping while bathing and to tell you the truth, i don't even know if i actually did used the shampoo or not. HAHA. pardon me for my dumpness. i was only focusing on bed and only bed at that point of time. so im not surprise if i actually did brush my teeth either. haha. stupid i know. ((:

.THURSDAY.130308.

i want the whole world to know,
that i hate my brother in law.
now and forever. (:

.WEDNESDAY.120308.

my 1 year ann with this blog is arriving preety soon.

and im resetting to public back again once my 1 year ann. arrives.

i've think of an url. i'll inform you people very very very soon alright?!

nights mates! (:

.WEDNESDAY.120308.

okay. work was tiring. especially without jon around. like seriously.

i've been assigned with tons of stuffs lately and i must say, its really pissing me off. whats more with not being able to complete your task by the end of the day. prrft.

i was suppose to stay overtime after my office hours came to an end just now but juliana let me off. i felt bad though, having to leave her alone with many many many more stuffs to complete on but whatever. im intending to stay overtime tomorrow anyway. so yup, juliana, no worries. i'll promise to help you as much as i can tomorrow okay? even if it takes till 8. ((:

cheers. (:

.TUESDAY.110308.

so the eye contact and the loud laughing between me and huzaimah was frequently done whenever ms ng kept on mentioning that 3-10 marks would be minus if there are steps we can't accomplished in microsoft access. haha. we laugh even louder when ms ng mentioned that 3 marks would be taken away if we don't know how to print. lol. its ridiculous i know. but thats how they work don't they? so yup. looks like i have to really focus on each and every steps done when next week's microsoft access common test arrives, cause grade A, in ms ng's red ink, is waiting patiently for me. HAHAHAH! like real siol. lol! (:

.MONDAY.100308.

okay. the first start off of march holiday has finally arrives.

yes. its monday morning. and i have yet to sleep. leaving with only a couple more hours to do so, what the hell am i still here for right? sigh. i'll tell you. its because i miss being a secondary school student. yes. i don't sleep early when im schooling. i don't get worried when im still a student. and i dont get all stressed up with whats going to happen tomorrow. sigh.

why do i even bother blogging anyway. not one will understand. prft.

im off. goodnight.

.SUNDAY.090308.

my nieces and sisters kept on emphasizing about how march holidays has finally arrives. even my friends kept on mentioning about them gazzilions times. Adem and Santhea had left for Melacca. Shafiqah and Zaimah had left for Batam. But i have yet to drag my feet to work even if though its march holiday. sigh.

everyone in this house have not yet fast asleep. and being the only person who is working tomorrow, i have to sleep early so i don't get heavy eyelids in the morning. kns. Jon won't be around for a week starting tomorrow. and i have to cover up juliana's task so she can finished up most of jon's work. sigh.

im back to square-one tomorrow.

now tell me. whats fair?

.SUNDAY.090308.

So we went swenson to celebrate kakak's birthday. i ate crayfish pasta. and damn it was really finger licking good. the ice-cream was marvelous. like seriously. i can still feel them running down my throat as im blogging about them right now. haha.

pictures was flashen alot. but they were flashen from my sister's camera. so i won't be able to get hold of any pictures till she comes online. lets wait together okay people? haha. cheers.

And Happy Birthday to you, Sister. Much loves. ((:

.SUNDAY.090308.

so many things to blog about.but i really don't know where to begin with.
maybe i'll start off with the lakeside park trip.



28 February 2008

So the initial plan was to head out with adem only. but lynno joined in not long later when she finds out that we're heading out. so yup. three of us at that beautiful scenery.

everything over there was beautiful. the lake, the trees, the night, just everything. the mother nature creation is really gorgeous. whats more interesting than breathing in the breeze thats really superb. seriously. i love the time spend over there. i love the peaceful environment that im surrounded with. it really clears off my emotional feelings and all. it vanished away all my unwanting stressness and cools me down every seconds that passes by. seriously. i should head there more often. but this time, with better friends. HAAHA. (:

.SUNDAY.090308.

HAAGEN-DAZS

It only took us 1 minute to be dined. (:

Pepsi float. ((:

This bitch really got no table manners. everything spilled. Pathetically. Prrft. look! Tempting rightttt???!!! its really2 finger licking good!! ((: I know. its heaven. i experience them. (:

Yes. She's merepek at times. hahahahaOkay. Elly told me to snap the chocolate dripping. damn chocolate.

Yes. You dip them with nuts. Delicious! (:

Hot Belgian-Chocolate. I LIKE. ((:

CANDID. i like.

This was whats left when we left for esplanade. haha.

So elly and me went to haagen daes straight right after school.

the ice-cream was finger licking good. the drinks was delicious. seriously. but when it comes to the bill. kns. 64.90. for two person serving. and i pay everything by the way. cb. haha. but whatever. lucky thing it was worth eating there. else i'll complaint and bring this matter to court. haha. okay aku merepek. (:

.FRIDAY.070308.

Okay.my deepest apology to you people for not been updating this blog lately. seriously. my schedule is getting tighter and tighter everyday ever since i've been given much work from working cliques and lots of task received from school teachers. trust me, the next time you know, i'll be laying on hospital bed due to the lack of enjoyment. haha.

i can't stay long for now BUT i'll promise to blog EVERYTHING first thing in the morning when tomorrow arrives alright?

cheers.

oh wait! happy birthday to you. NurAkashah. much loves.(: