.TUESDAY.301208.

Have i mentioned that the movie Twilight is two thumbs up? yup. i went to watched with my 4th sister last saturday and hell the movie is sweet. Vampire and Human in love. Hell Nice. i Shall go get the DVD as soon as they're release. Hoho!
Anyway, somehow, my instincts tells me that there's part 2 for Twilight. if there is, i'll be the first to catch them on theaters. (:

Cheers!

-A little note to you loves for i'm left with two more days to stay blogging before my disapearance for 4 months begins. )):

.MONDAY.291208.

I’m confused; I’m stress; and I don't know what to do.
If anyone of you still thinks that I’m a little bit overreacting about the working issue, then I’m afraid for you people are wrong. I really couldn’t control my emotional feelings after which what had happened on Saturday night. The feeling of wanting to shout, scream, cry, and all negative feelings is all in me.
I really don't understand why is it that I’m always ended up with facing shits. Seriously. Of all human beings standing on the earth; why me? What is it that I’ve done so wrong to deserve such obstacle? What is it have I done so wrong for I have to accept this setbacks? It ever happened once, and I don’t like a single bit of what happened before. So why is it I have to face the same old shit again? Ugh. No. I’m not good. I’m stressed, confused, and I really don’t know what to do. I know; life is always full of setbacks after setbacks. But if the setbacks I’m going to face will somehow ruin my future, then I don’t want to live. I mean what’s the point anyway? prft. I really want to cry tears of blood.
Oh god, I’m praying for there’s a reason behind whatever obstacles that I’m facing with right now.

.WEDNESDAY.241208.

Okay, im seriously suffering from stress stage 3.
Helen talked to me yesterday and offered me to stay for 3 months more before i buzz my butt off to school in April. Salary wise would be different by then cause I won’t longer be under ite traineeship course whereas the company is holding onto my responsibilities by then. I went around asking my collogue roughly what’s the capital amount im going to receive and all mentioned with an experience worker like me, the worst I could get is at least $1200.00.
Now I seriously don’t know what to do. For 12 months I’ve always wanted to get my ass kick off from here. For 12 months I’ve been complaining, scold all sorts of vulgarities over how foolishly I am to be entitled to this company, and cry tears of blood on how I couldn’t stand a minute longer working in here. But again, to think of how I’ve been able to stay faithful still with this company for the past 12 months, why not holding onto 3 more month’s right? It’s not like as if my salary won’t be double of what im earning now. Sigh. I really don’t know. I need a firm answer latest next week. Helen been asking what is my decision and I’ve been telling her the answer will be with her as soon as possible. Damn I really don’t know. Should I, or should I not? That’s the question. Sigh.
Anyway, I’ve applied leave for this coming 26th. So today beat the last day I’ll be working for this week. 4 days straight off. Best or what? Haha.
Joycelyn Agnes Ferdinand John, we’ll meet tomorrow for Christmas alright? Much misses. (:

.MONDAY.221208.

i guess you people already know on how much i've been wanting to quit my job but couldn't do so due to the contract bonding which im having with them. Prft. im left with 7 more days (not including Saturday, Sunday & public holidays) to work. and to think of how my work is going to end pretty soon, i couldn't thanked god enough on how he made time flies really fast. (:
anyhoo. jon and Juliana actually asked me to extend my contract bonding for one more month due to which, jon will be going for his reservist 2 weeks straight on early jan and left with Juliana working alone in my team. Jon told me that they’ve talked to Helen about this and will have her talked to me personally soon. I seriously don’t know if I should extend my contract bonding for one more month. I’ve always wanted to quit. But to think of how Juliana will be working alone, I somehow pity her.
Now, what should I do?

.WEDNESDAY.171208.

And i have exactly 10 more days (not counting in Saturday, Sunday and Public Holidays) to breathe in this company. i really got to disagree with those who thinks time flies real fast cause unfortunately for me, it doesn't go that way. im really sick and tired of working. but thinking of how the contract bonding will end soon, i really got no choice but to head down for work everyday (excluding public holidays of course). prft.

damn. i really miss my old life. 2008, is sooo not a bliss.

.WEDNESDAY.101208.

Finally. The month which i've been looking forward to; waiting for it to arrived; yearning for time to flies by super fast till this month; has finally arrived. praise god so much. words can't describe how thankful and happy am i for months to pass by really fast. though of course at times, i still think its kind of slow but hell, december has finally arrived baybeh! and im really looking forward for this month to end real soon. cause i can't stand any minute more working in this company. prft.

anyway, have i mentioned that i've gotten myself a new PSP Slim? yup. it's here, in my pocket, waiting for the buttons to be touched yet again everyday right after work. i swear aku tak ingat dunia kalau tengah main. haha. (:

now, my pockets is all dry out of money. prft. but oh hell. money is not an issue here for me right now. what's inportant is that i've got what i've been craving for since the beggining of the year. and my hard earned moments had finally paid off! (:

reparations with the cpu has yet to get done however, pathetic brother in law had cut the internet line. now i don't know if i should really repair the cpu. whats the point repair-ing the comp if the internet could not be used right? sigh. i'll reconsider about it.

for now, cheers! (: