.FRIDAY.290208.

i'll update soon. super tired.

Haagen Daez was wonderful. Work was fine. surprisingly. and Lakeside park was beautifully spend. i'll update on all that soon okay? cheers. (:

.TUESDAY.260208.

just when everything was about to went well at work yesterday when i got scolding AGAIN for the very last 15 minutes. kns. and mind you, this time, the scoldings was much more publicise than before.
i really don't want to work. seriously. but quitting the job is totally a not allowed thingy. reasons are simple. i've sign bonding with the company for 1 year, and if i quit, it simply means that i have to pay a total sum of 1k or more to them. whats more with my education that'll stop halfway. sigh.
to endure for another 10 months plus is really a difficult thing to do. i really can't endure no more. being humiliate infront of people is really embarrassing. crying tears of blood is hurting me more and more. now tell me. what am i suppose to do? sigh.
beach at night. anyone? please?

.MONDAY.250208.

i really feel like crying, thinking about how im left with only a couple more hours to work. seriously. god, why of all company, i have to work for SoonSteel? why? don't i deserve some other better place to work at? even after what happen to me on that unforgettable result day? at least somewhere better than Soonsteel would be fine. but please. why soonsteel? why?! its not that i don't appreciate with what i've gotten from the almighty. but come on. at least i deserve to work somewhere that is much much more convinient at kan? SoonSteel is soo not my type la. sigh.

i really want to cry. really really really want to cry. i hate my working environment. so freaking much. ughx. fuck soonsteel!

.SUNDAY.240208.

i'd just finished reading one of Perry Moore's novel, entitled 'HERO' and i swear, i love the novel so freaking much. seriously. gosh. i really wonder what its like, having super powers, saving the world, fight crimes and stuffs. for real. aren't they like soo cool? i mean come on, imagine yourself having super strength. or invisible. or even fly. cool rigght? haha.

The storylines are still running inside my head right now and i swear, Perry Moore's novels is damn good. credits to him for sharing such a wonderful story. i should really read more of his book often. its soo unputdownable. (:

and oh. Perry Moore is also the producer for 'THE CHRONICLES OF NARNIA: THE LION, THE WITCH, AND THE WARDROBE'. see how amazing his stories is? haha. now, im hoping for any director to forward 'HERO' in movies. i'll be the first person to catch that movie if it ever comes out in theatre. seriously. haha.(:

Cheers to Perry Moore! (:

.SUNDAY.240208.

Sister gotten hell last night from brother in law for such ridiculous reasons. i got no comments on hisham being the most pathetic person to live on earth. like seriously. not only the way on how he reacts with the tone of his voice but the accusation he made was sooo fuck. whats with him being so annoying ever since he's not working? lazy ass. im not surprise if his dick is getting smaller due to the sitting-at-home-and-not-working person. whatever.

sister darling, don't be sad okay. endure with only another 2 years plus and i'll assure you there won't be any more ridiculous scoldings from yours truly. look on the positive side my dear. you still got your brother around to hear your ramblings and all. just talk to me if you feel like to and i'll promise to be on my very best to always be by you. so stop thinking about it little sister and don't cry too much or i'll have that better look than you. well, actually i already have la. even though how hard you try to always look better than me, you will always still be miles away behind me. so ya. keep trying darling. i'll win you still, eventually. (:

.SUNDAY.240208.

i can't blog for long. still got tons of stufss to do.

i'll blog about hows the last-minute plan to pizza outing with bestfriends soon, and hows the not-fun-at-all trip to west coast soon okay?

cheers to the world. (:

.SATURDAY.230208.

i cried tears of blood at work yesterday. partly was due to my ridiculous mistake which was one thing, and get scoldings in front of my working clique is another. and mind you, i got scoldings twice. not only i was humiliated but i really felt embarrased. like seriously. any dumb ass who'd be in my shoe would felt that way too. sigh.

im off. i hate working life.

13 more days to her birthday.

.WEDNESDAY.200208.

no one knows what im really feeling inside. no one. its easy for people to say stuffs and not know how im feeling. because you people are not me. telling me you understand how i feel just like that is not enough. try to be in my shoe. just try. and you'll feel the pressure and all. sigh. why do i even bother saying. whats the point anyway. prff.

i want to go to the beach, at night, and shout all my lungs out if i couuld. please. i really want to. but of course i need a listening ear arround. accompany me anyone? sigh.

.WEDNESDAY.200208.

i didn't attend myself at work today. oh wait. like i even want to at the first place. im not being pure lazy here. im just. you know, don't want to go. thats it. get the difference? nevermind that.

i really don't like my environment. but like what my uncle mentioned before, "if you don't like with what you're surronded with, its either you adapt to the changes, or you get away from there." i can't stop working. if i do, it symbolise to the fact that i stop my education there. which i don't want to of course, cause there's still so much things to see in the world. and to make that come alive, good education is a must.

im going to get good GPA points. i will. and this time, its for real. Lee Kuan Yew Award is waiting for me. cheeyy. macam faham. hahahaha. but whatever it is, im getting a good GPA points. i will. if no one supports me, then i'll support myself! gooo azharrr gooooooo!!!!!! hahahahaha. okay im merepek. lol.

cheers! (:

.TUESDAY.190208.

school was finee. teachers disappeared themselves today and didn't turned up for lessons at all. one says she had some course to attend to. others either got an appoinment with a doctor or have to attend some other issues that are much much more important than us. prft. whatever to that.

nothing to do in school really bores me to death. elliyana has been my listening ear throughout that day. we talked, crap, and laugh around ourselves like no one business. haha. i'll be having a roleplay test with her very soon and our plan was to focus on shampoo. you think its alright? others kept on emphasising on the topics they're going to focus on which is handphones, mp3 players, microwaves, and blablabla. too common. not nice. so we must be different. right elliyana? hahah. we'll score good grades. we will. i hope. afterall. both of us are a drama actor and actress still kannnn? hahahaha.

home was next and im really not looking forward to tomorrow. sigh.

.MONDAY.180208.

I really got no comments on work.
Juliana didn't came to work. which of course, leads me on having to do all the invoicing and stuffs. working with jon, is totally a turn off thing. like seriously. not only i cant ask much questions but he's a little bit too serious. of course, with that kind of attitude, would you like even dare to lay a voice on him and asked stuffs like, "am i doing correctly?". afterall, he expect me to know what im doing and no mistakes should be done. prrft. whatever to that.
on a lighter note, tomorrow's schooling. which also means that i don't have to drag my freaking feet to work and all. ((:

.MONDAY.180208.

i feel like crying.

don't know for what reason though.

sigh.

.MONDAY.180208

im missing my old school more than ever right now. seriously. im working in a couple more hours and im soo not looking forward to it. long hours is such a kill. i still got lots of work to get it done with and mind you, that exclude the homeworks for ite. sigh. im soo fissh. whatever.

im done here. i need to get some rest. good night and lets hope tomorrow would be fine. ((:

.SUNDAY.170208.

gosh. i have friends who's freaking proud and arrogant. now listen. you do not only rant about Os. you rant about how ITE influence people alot. well hello? just soo you know, that you really shouldn't judge a book by its cover. i have classmates who's doing quite well in ITE. i have friends and families who excell their studies in ITE. and just to open your eyes wider, they got great GPA points which in the end, bring them to Poly still. so whats with ITE being an influence school? its not the end still you know. people have their own minds and thoughts on whether or not to continue their Os. after all, every human beings has their own choices whether or not to study even if they're in ITE. its freedom of choice. so whats with you being so extra in making a big fuss about them being so perisitence? cb. i hate proud bitches and bastards.

thats about it.

.SUNDAY.170208.

JB was yesterday and i swear the trip was a super dull one.

tell me. whats fun about heading to malaysia with your pathetic annoying brother in law, sister, and all your irritating nieces in the middle of the night? like as if the shops are all open still. prrft. thats not all. i had to help that jackass washed his car and wax his seats. knnbccb. like as if i got the whole time in the world. but of course. i don't have a choice. cb.

pioneer mall was up next at 0400am. i only ate fries cause i seriously got no mood after what he mentioned on having to help him yet again, later at home just to clean his room and nieces room. like what the hell? your room and nieces room? what there got to do with me? i mean, since you're not working, might as well make yourself usefull by doing all that soo la. buto. my weekends is only to enjoy after looong hours both at work and school. not to do some heavy stuffs that has got nothing to do with me at the first place. sial.

let me rant about something.

i hate my brother in law now, and forever.

bahbye.

.SATURDAY.160208.

i did lots of mistake at work yeaterday. don't know for what reason but whatever. im getting closer with my working cliques these few days. i mean, jokes was created. though it wasn't much but then, little jokes resembles alot to us you see. sammi (lady) kept on bringing the fact on how i gave a rose to someone. kns. haha. jon and juliana laugh on my silly stupid ridiculous mistake. haha. and even after minutes had passes by, they still laughed on that issues. cb. haha.

work was fine la basically. (:

you. im falling for you.

.SATURDAY.160208.

14th February 2008!

Valentines day was a blast. Like seriously. i met up with bestfriends after work and it was really hillarious. i mean, me, ahmad and lynno was already in JP by then but was avoiding with each other just cause we were all searching for our last minute touch up for valentines day gift. haha. theres one part where i was talking to ahmad on phone when i saw lynno. i quickly hide to one side so as not to be seen by her! haha. it was dead serious funny la. lols.

anyway, the initial plan was to had some desserts at swenson. but of course. having friends who ran out of cash, the plan was cancelled. so we packed our food instead and went santhea's area and had our dinner-supper. whatever you called them la. blablabla, called santhea down and thats where all the excitement began. haha. we had lots of craps, talks, debates regarding mr alam and mr pang, and ms lin and mr paul. haha. of course i only joined them on mr alam and mr pang part cause they're the only teachers who ever taught me in school. so ya. hahaha.

but whatever it is, the day was fun larh! the exchanging of gifts was really beautiful. it all began with lynno. then me. then ahmad, and joycelyn, then last, adem. haha. lynn, gave us a cookie from coffee bean and packed together with a kit-kat. i gave them a card which i design myself ofcourse, together with a heart-shape stick which i bought for them. ahmad, being a baker, bake for us a choc cake or what do you call them "fererocupcakes' is it ahmad? haha. it was really cute. seriously. joyce gave us 'toblerone' and adem, that demanding guy took lots of time just to give us his small gifts. which is appreciated of course. hahaha. everything was sweet la.

blablabla, knowing that it was already 1000pm, we packed our stuffs and head home. haha. i love my valentines day spent and i love my bestfriends alot. (:

you. im addicted to you. (:

.SATURDAY.160208.

12th Februay 2008!

school was fun. hahaha. i was suppose to meet up with elly and elliyana at 0730 but as always, being the most important people, they waited for me. like how sweet kan? haha. lol. i get out of the house at 0730am sharp! haha. yes i know, what the hell kan? lols. well. i woke up late. and that explains on why 0730am. but of course, being the most kind friend of all, i took a cab okay to interchange okay.. see how good i am?! haha. whatever.

anyway, during lesson, there's one part where elly's phone rang loudly. and i was like, "elly! diam larh!!". haha. everyone turn and looked at her of course. but not long later, while elly was still on the phone with shahfiq, my phone rang loudly. haha. elly was laughing her ass out already. kns. haha.

blablabla, after school, i met up with shahfiq, shahrul and azfar. azfar is getting much more handsome as time passes by. i envy his hair but whatever. on my pay day to come, i'll get my hair change and it'll be much more better than everyone else! chey. kidding la. lol. (:

whatever it is, school was happening. (:

.FRIDAY.150208.

9 of February was much more of the word fun! haha. us, cousins, was the only people who was at home that night. bro and sis went out with their friends just to celebrate bro's birthday in advance. wait. like i even care! whatever.

anyway, that night, we did lots of nonsentical stuffs together. like played cards, joke around, cook, and blablabla. there's one part, where rahimi was out alone in the hall using the comp and we took the time to scared him off out of his seat. dila dressed up as that lady and hell she look really2 scary. haha. she got out of the room and tried to freak rahimi out. but pathetically, he wasn't at all frightened. not even a single bit. prrft.

i flashed lots of pics that night but pathetically, on sunday, 10th of february, kakak borrowed my phone just to transfer songs which then i don't know how, that phone got onto that annoying brother in law's hands. and of course, when my phone gotten onto his hands, every pictures, videos, and songs went dissapeared. thats not all. he didn't even apologise to me for what happened. macam babi kan perangai? sial. prft.

whatever. all in all, 9th february was another blasting day. ((:

.FRIDAY.150208.

sorry for the lack of updates you guys. seriously. my pathetic brother in law has been conquering the comp for every single night ever since he quited his job and that explains on why i haven't been updating this blog for these past few days. sigh.

oh wells. whatever it is, lets rest assure that i'll try my best to clear all the events i have since chinese new year till today alright? (:

8th February 2008!

First picture that was flashen on Friday. (:

Juriani. who's gorgeous and smart. who's beautiful and talented. and who's preety IRRITATING too. haha. she hits people every now and then whenever we make fun of her. or when she needs attention. lols

Rahimi. who asked stupid questions and always gives stupid answers. irritating and annoying but i still can tahan though. haha. (:

and Seri. that chubby kid. who's clever and smart. and always scored top 3 in class. (:

i love this. well somehow. haha. (:

i was suppose to meet shafiqah on that day but however, that girl cancelled our planned. pathetically. lols. but nevertheless, the outing i had with family, was preety blast. i didn't regret a single bit. in fact, i enjoyed my day very very much. (:

.MONDAY.110208.

thursday, 7th February 2008!

i spend my midnights with these two gorgeous on thursday and hell it was fun. like seriously. ahmad's laptop has been a hell of an entertainer. and so is his vsf videos. apart from the laughters we created, that night was the first night where i exceed after 12am, sharing that joyous moments with them. seriously. mr fazlin joined a few hours later. he gave us this crossword puzzle which actually contains all straight forward answers but we kept on thinking inner than what we're supposed to. haha! whatever it is, that night was fun. lets have another midnight outing soon okay ahmad and joycelyn? (:
anyway, cousins stayed over that night and that adds more fun on my happening nightlife. seriously. after 2 years of not meeting, the reunion with cousins was superb! haha. i'll update my outing with cousins and families soon okay? cheers. (:

.SUNDAY.100208.

Sorry for the irregular update-tions homies. been cramp up with lots of stuffs lately and whats more with chinese new year's holidays. lots of stories to share but with the lack of time given, im not sure if im able to update all of them by today. i'll try but no promises. (:
nevermind that.

Here's the Sentosa Outing which falls on last wednesday,
6th February 2007

the first picture that was flashen on that particular joyous day. (:



They thought that Adem was sleeping and without giving me any signal on wanting t0 flash a picture, they flashed me knowing it. prrft. and oh! adem told us that if he wants to do well for his O level english, he has to start reading a book. double the prrfft.
as always, she is soo freaking vain. ahahahha. i told them to flash a pic on us standing on a rock. and obviously, im the one who's always posing with style. (: dila claims that she look like my mom. which at all didn't caught my attention till she show me this. hahaha. me - "ehh wait wait. i want to stand behind adem so as i can hide my fats." me - "okay flash now. adem, pose like cool2 okay?" haha. that bitch, adem, told us to play a game on who can stand their breath the longest in the water. he told us not to go into the water except for joyce. how bitchy kann? kns. look at my babat! haha. so the tebal. shafiqah ever claims that i can create a smiley face using my babat. bitch. haha. (: these was the bunch of guys who kept on singing their lungs out beautifully twentyfour-seven. we sang along with them but heck. they didnt care. kns.

first he flashes with ahmad ONLY. then he flashes with Joycelyn ONLY. the us, siblings ONLY and then with her, ONLY. see how demanding can he get on wanting to flash a picture with whom he only want to flash with? cb. hahaha. i like this. somehow. there's a story behind these two pictures below. i took a picture of them and told adem to took a picture of me and the rest exactly on how i took it below afterwards.

Pathetically, what do you get when adem faichal turns bitchy?!

this! kns. he told us to shift herand there and at the end, i can't be seen. at all. like cb kan? kns. adem - " ehh take picture with your legs up like this."

me - " don't want! later my leg look humongous!"

adem - "just take only larrr! "

knnbccb kan him? haha

joycelyn muker slenger kan??? i know.

that bitch. whom im pity with actually. cause, bitchy is one thing. vain is another. and with people who's attitude like that, its obvious that they are lack of loves. like seriously. ((:

like i mentioned before, the outing was a super blast one! seriously. every minute spend was loved. i love my bestfriends alot and yes, i really do. another outing soon okay bestfriends? i love you guys. (: