.WEDNESDAY.300108.

lack of updates. lack of online-ning (if there's such a word) and lack of communications with you lovelies. what the hell i know.

oh well. my deepest apologies to you people. seriously. i really don't know what has got into me. i mean, i swear im damn shagged for the pass one week. like seriously. work was cramp with gazzilions of stuffs and hell i swear, if my head contains loads of larva, it would explode long time ago. really. i mean. minus the common test revision done, minus of the outing to search for shahrul 18th birthday present, minus of shahrul's party at my house, oh god. i was already half inhuman at that point of time. lols.

anyway. many stories to share but i really don't know which one to began with. haha.

i'll blog on the next post. preety soon alright? this time, i promise. (:

cheers for now. (:

.TUESDAY.220408.

common test was manageable. no confidence in getting an A but a stable grade will do still. afterall, i didn't put my fullest effort in it. so yup. im prepared to get the least passing grade. (:

anyway, ms ng mentioned that we'll be having another common test regarding microsoft excell next week. and to add fuel into the flame, i didn't understand a single dust i learnt about microsoft excell today. crap! and now i began to wonder if im able to pass my exams for this semester. prfft.

ohh weelll. 26th april - my sinful day. and i can't wait. (:

.SUNDAY.200408.

for various reasons; i feel like crying with countless drops of tears.

and to summarise everything up; im trap with this little thing called; stress.

prft.

.FRIDAY.180408.

oh god. im dead tired. like seriously.

tomorrow's saturday. which of course, lead to only how many more hours for me to study, complete my project, and prepare for work. prft! 5 chapters to study. 2 days to cover up everything; including project. now tell me. why time is not precious again? sigh.

im off.

.THURSDAY.170408.

i failed by one mark for the first semester. and i teared exactly the same way the moment when i've gotten back my N level result slip. prft.

azhar, its finally proven; you're one hell of a big time failure.

you should've been noted. sigh.

im off.

.WEDNESDAY.160408.

sharmeen darling,

don't be sad alright? i know we can get through this. i just know we can. not being in 5n3 doesn't mean theres no world ahead of us. cause there is still. only difference, things will get tougher than how it had been back then. back when we were still together in 4n3.

there is no denial on the actual fact that i miss 5n3 badly too. and yes, i teared every now and then, looking at how much fun they had. without us around. and how we should've been in that class; in that international friendship competition; in that dinner outing. what is more heaven-nize than spending our precious moments with them, our real classmate. right? but shit happens. and you know what they always say, 'we can dream on how we want things to be on our way, but we can't predict on how things will not be going on our way'. sigh.

we're once a big time failure. but we won't and never will be again. for i know, you will succeed in whatever you're doing right now. or infact, WE will both succeed together. let whatever happens last year, happens. don't let them ruins your tomorrow-ness. i know, its the toughest obstacles to get over on the fact that all your friends are not there by you. cause im on the same boat with you too. but hell. we still have to move on. and please. you're not alone. i'll promise with all my heart and soul, that my i'll be by your side, even though it takes a whole lifetime to be there by you. please. don't be sad anymore okay?

take care bestfriend. i love you. (:

.TUESDAY.150408.

Okay, i really got no comments on one of my teammates being such a moronic babarian. seriously. i mean, i spend all night, using my effort, (NOTE: MY EFFORT) in doing all those slides and there you go stating and complaining on the fact that you don't favorite my decoration of the slides. like what the hell? if you want things to be your way and only your way, please! do everything yourself lar! that way, we won't hear your ramblings and nagging. agree? kns! prft.
oh whatever. whats important now, its done.
im off.

.MONDAY.150408.

that's it. i give up.
there's still tons more slides to go and i doubt i'll clear them on time.
ugh. im really dread tired. im off. seriously. let whatever happens tomorrow, happens.
goodnight

.SUNDAY.130408.

oh god. im dead tired. seriously. i have yet to complete my ite project and i swear, theres still tons more slides to cover on. doing all alone really gave me the thought of just presenting alone. afterall, its my effort. not theirs. so why do i even bother giving any credits to them? don't you think so? furthermore, i work everything alone. sigh. okay. that is so freaking random.
oh wells. i'll complete everything by tomorrow. for now, im off.
cheers! (:

.SATURDAY.120408.

the cold weather really gives the temptation to sleep. and as much as i want to, i can't. cause apparently, i have yet to complete my school's project. prft. deadline tuesday. and i have not yet start from the basic. what the fuck i know.

the topic we're touching on has something got to do with lady's accesories. and what more do lady's like apart from having their faces beautifully make up? yes. we're touching on make ups. the brand would be revlon. and i swear i don't know a thing about revlon. i wanted to touch on prada. for prada contains much much more categories that we can talked about. things like bags, or phones, make ups, a satra. but what happens when we have such a demanding person in our team? double the prft!

whatever to that. guess i'll better get going. i have to start from the scratch. i don't want an F for my project do i? hahah.

cheers for now! (:

.FRIDAY.110408.

i bleed my finger at work just now. and the continuous dripping of blood really freaks me out. i know it sounds super ridiculous to get your finger bleed in office cause what sharp utensils is there in the office? apart from staplers and penknives of course but hell, i didn't brought along my staplers to work just now. and penknives really freaks me out at times so i don't used them in work. so how did i exactly get my finger bleed? i'll tell you. i was doing some paper filings when i suddenly slide my finger off this sharp metal edges. it was effing sharp lar. sharper than a knife i should say. and its really really super-duper painful lar! kns. lucky thing my body comtains tons of blood. else, i'll be suffering with low blood pressure sickness. prft.

oh wells. im off. need to get some sleep.

cheers for now! (:

.THURSDAY.100408.

you know. its really funny to think of how stupid i am to be the only one who bothers to pick up the phone and ring a call to them and not them returning that same favour to me. seriously. i really feel like a total ass. i mean come on, whats with me making the fullest effort to know about how they're doing and all when they don't even bother to spend at least 5 minutes asking how im actually doing at work and stuffs. with the kind of movements im making right now, it really feels like as though im desperate for them. though i know they won't and never will think that way but sometimes, in what state we are now speaks for everything. i don't need sympahthy. and im not asking much. just a care and concern towards me would be more than happy already.

sigh. whatever. this is so random.

im done here.

.WEDNESDAY.090408.

my duty handling phonecalls in the receptionist area just now for lunch was uber fun! kak rosie came in at around 0100pm and we chat and crap about tons of stuffs like hows our cliques and bosses attitudes are and blablabla. i just came to realise tha my company is seriously like one hell of a fucker. i mean come on. a recorder in the phone? what the hell? so whatever im going to talked about in future will eventually be heard by them la? kns. no wonder many people come and go. that actually explains the whole situation right now. prft. whatever to that.

i have to talk to kak rosie more often in order to know more about soonsteel international. that is only one secret among thousands. there are tons more stuffs and secrets that needs to be revealed and im going to find out what it is. (:

for now, im off. cheers!

.WEDNESDAY.090408.

both my left and right eye twitches every now and then for don't know what reason in particular. to some people beliefs, if your eyes twitches frequently, it simply means that

1, someone is talking about you be it of good or bad things.

2, you're going to meet someone whom you haven't been meeting for a long time.

or 3, you're going to cry. not now but soon.

okay. i won't be surprise if someone or anyone is really talking about me, cause apparently, who won't talked about the most popular guy in this little place called world? haha. i mean come on. if someone is actually talking about you, be it about good or bad things, you should truly be honoured about it cause at least someone remembered you in their lifes. don't you think so? haha. (:

and if im meeting someone whom i haven't been meeting for such a long period of time, who will it be then? perhaps my mum but i don't know. it could be someone else you know. perhaps my brother chris brown or maybe tpain. i don't know. haha!

and and if im really going to cry, what am i going to get teared about? gee. i wonder.

sometimes, these kind of things really curious me like hell. (:

.TUESDAY.080408.

i've been living in this world without my friends around me that much for 4 months. so what would ever happen if 4 years were to come ahead of me? will i not be contacting with them anymore? will i not be having them around me anymore? i seriously don't know. people always go, saying on the fact that you can dream on whatever happens ahead of you right now. but you can never predict on whatever is coming ahead of you later. i really don't know. i don't want to lose anyone of my friends. not now, not forever. but im already feeling the lost from each and everyone of them. not all in one shot but one by one. yes, one by one. and soon, the petals on my rose will gone empty. sigh.

.TUESDAY.080408.

work is getting smoother and smoother as days passes by. i've been occupied with tons of stuffs lately and surprisingly, i managed to complete each task given just like that! haha. though of course i did asked a few questions here and there still but all in all, im still able to managed out most of the work by myself. i thanked the almighty for that. (:

anyway, my eyelids has been really really heavy this pass few days for don't know what reason. perhaps, just perhaps. due to the lack of sleepless nights i had recently. the motion speed i used to walk for work has drastically went down. and mind you, i missed my bus on monday. lucky thing theres a thing called public transport. else, i'll be doomed for not turning up to work. haha! and if that actually happens, i'll be back to square one. prft.

oh whatever. im off to bed for now. really sleepy.

cheers! (:

.SUNDAY.060408.

okay. im missing my bestfriends very very much. ):

.SUNDAY.060408.

though there wasn't any much laughters spend yesterday, my day was fun still. somehow.

ahmad's baking was superb. crispy noodle was so finger licking good. it was a taste that really worth craving for. haha. there wasn't really any much communications done between all of us. of course what is there to talked about when one is busy with cooking, one is busy baking and two came later than they're suppose to. prft. it would have been better if everyone was there at the same time and help each other out with stuffs. that, we could spend more time talking and crapping like we have always did. but nevertheless, yesterday was fun still. and oh. Happy 17th Birthday Ahmad Zaqeeyan! Hope my gift was appreciated. (:

blablabla, sharmeen and me catch up with nas, zaimah, fina, syafiq, dafiqa and shafiqah later than we planned to. sorry for that guys. haha. we met, crap, swam, eat, blablabla and packed up since it began to drizzle at around 530pm. vivo was next. fina left first for don't know what reason. follow up by nas, then syafiq, ema and sharmeen. the one who was left behind was me, dafiqa and shafiqah. chit-chat, crap, blablabla and packed up at around 1000pm. home was next. so, farewell to shafiqah and left with dafiqa and me. sigh.

im missing my friends soooo freaking much already. seriously. ):

.SUNDAY.060408.

i know. i've been neglecting this blog lately. pardon me for that.

i've been really really tired this few days. whats more with the long hours i have to face in work? prft. seriously. long hours is such a kill. of course, it wouldn't be a kill if in between that time, you got something to do. other than that, it's really a kill. sitting on my desk doing nothing really bores me to death. lucky thing theres no history coming out in news headline mentioning that 'People Sitting On Their Desk Doing Nothing DIES'. cause if it ever does, i am the first person to make that happen. lols.

(:

.TUESDAY.010408.

it has always been a standard procedure thing for Jon to always check every email i done before sending out. but just now, he said something which i really don't know if i have the confidence to attempt those task.

me: jon. im done with this email. check for me will you?

jon: okay. starting from tomorrow onwards, you send your email all on your own. so if there's any mistakes, you'll have to bear with the consequences.

me: oh. okay.

oh god. i really don't know if i can do this. lets hope everything will be okay alright? sigh.