.FRIDAY.220509.

i didn't went to school yet again yesterday. and that was only because i was pure damn lazy. ass i know!

nevermind that. anyhoo. it has come to my attention that i haven't been eating rice for 6 days straight. like whoa! haha. a friend once told me that rice contains tons of carbohydrates. and that if we were to eat rice and don't do any exercises, that energy will be stored as fats. so, in order to avoid fats, i'm avoiding rice for as long as i could. not that i don't and won't be touching them anymore but hell i wanna lose more weight badly. and since i don't do much of exercising, i might as well don't swallow even a single drain of it. (:

anyhoo. im turning legal 18 (like finally) soon and hell i'm like soo excited! haha. i know. only 18. but oh what the heck. i finally get to buy cigerettes legally. clubs won't do much of a problem cause im already 18. haha. and what's more. im soo gonna get a motor license right after my birthday! haha. so radiah bt rajis. save your money up cause next week, we're gonna enroll together. and please. lets finish the theory and practical quickly. cause i had enough of travelling by train to school with the expensives ticket fares. also, gillera is long waiting for me to ride baybeh! haha.

im off. 9 hours of programming lectures begins at 8am tomorrow. and whats worse, i'll be working right after school. prft!

.THURSDAY,210509.

school was fine today and that is only beacause physics was cancelled at the very last minute. which of course, brings me joy cause i don't have to face shits for physics and able to vanished off from school early. good thing eyy? only 3 hours of lectures and bam! i'm home. haha.

anyhoo. you know what's the most pathetic thing to have in school especially at this kind of age? p.e. yup. i never like doing this whole exercising, running, streching up kinda thing. it brings sweat and damn i never like to perspire. trust me. you wouldn't even want to sweat a drop if you're in my shoes. cause. imagine yourself having to head home from paya lebar to pioneer with sweats all over you. damnt it right? i know.it sucks big time. but oh well, you got to do what you got to do. and since napfa test are like around the corners, i soo gonna have to pump everything up - like i even want to. prftt.

and yes, i have to do all the five stations (not including 2.4) tomorrow. ugh.

life is such a torture without freedom of choice.

im off. meeting mum tomorrow. so gotta sleep early.

cheers!

.WEDNESDAY.200509.

weekends has been such a kill. if i'm not at home, doing nothing but rotting to death, then i'll be at boon lay power, working either being as a cashier, server, or a cooker. prft. life has been such a bore lately. i mean, i never get to spend at least a single minute hanging out with my friends during the weekends. and hell at this age, that is what us teenagers do most in life these days.

oh boy, do i miss my friends truckloads. sigh.

phase test are like around the corner and i'm soo not ready for them. damn. it really amazed me how majority of my classmates are able to adapt physics real quickly and i don't. seriously. this suck big time. i mean, i want to be in that standard where i can answer to every questions that are being flashed out in mr goh's powerpoint slides. i want to be the one who ables to finish the assignments given even before majority does. and if wires and stuffs are being place directly infront of me, i want to be the one who can connect every cable to the right end. but i can't. and i really don't know why. maybe. just maybe. i never like physics before. thats why. maybe i can never like physics even if i try to like them. that is exactly why. ugh.
hell. im prepare to fail my papers badly.

.FRIDAY.150509.

i know i might be the slowest person living on to know that smoking a stick actually kills 7 minutes of your life. i'm a HEAVY (thanks shafiqah *idiot* haha. ) smoker. i smoke like what? 1 box for 1 and a half day? damn right. crazy i know.

everyone around me knew i smoke. my friends. my family (except my grandmother). even my mum knew about it. of course, like all mothers, when they found out that their kids smoke, the only thing that they do is nag and nag and nag. but what the heck? it's a habit that i can't resist. i don't smoke due to influencial of my friends or anyone around me. i don't smoke just cause i wanna feel cool and all whoa about it. i smoke because i want to. i want to smoke and thats it. it's not an easy thing to get off with. i remember one time when i was really damn broke and got no money to get one, i crave for them. i crave for one puff badly. i know it sounds stupid wasting money on these kinda shit. but hell whatever. i like smoking and want to smoke. i'll quit. maybe. just maybe. when the government rise a pack of cigerrette cost to a bomb, then i quit. otherwise, no. afterall, it's freedom of choice.

okay. this post is soo random.

well, i blog about it cause just a few minutes ago, while using the comp and puff at the same time, my grandmother actually caught me red-handed. damn it. though she didn't really say anything, i still don't feel good cause i remember one time very well, she told us not to ever lay a single finger on cigerettes. but i did and got stuck with it. i don't feel bad about it. at least not until just now.

prrfftt.

.FRIDAY.150509.

i chatted with my class advisor just only.

and the conversation goes like this;

azharmirzan - what cannot be cured; must be endured. says:
are you coming tomorrow?
Casper=> says:
nope
i am on course
why today u didnt go school?
azharmirzan - what cannot be cured; must be endured. says:
urm.
well i don't want to lie.
so
to tell you honestly
Casper=> says:
go on
azharmirzan - what cannot be cured; must be endured. says:
i woke up late again.
Casper=> says:
12pm lesson my dear
yet cant woke up?
what time u sleep?
azharmirzan - what cannot be cured; must be endured. says:
i know.
and i didn't know what's got into me
well.
i slept around 3 last night
Casper=> says:
hmmm
u need to do something about it
it will affect u greatly if u goes on like this
azharmirzan - what cannot be cured; must be endured. says:
yea. i've gotten myself a new alarm clock just now.
should not be a problem for tomorrow.
Casper=> says:
good to hear that
good start
b in school tmr
lesson as usual
azharmirzan - what cannot be cured; must be endured. says:
alright.
no worries about it.
Casper=> says:
good to hear that



i lied about the new alarm clock thingy. but that's not the point. the point is, he actually mentioned on the fact that if this carry on, it will affect me greatly. prft.
i had seriously enough of failure. first the N level. then the unsuccessful nitec office course. and i don't want this. not anymore. seriously. lidya was telling me to make a new resolution since my birthday is coming. maybe. just maybe. if i don't want this kind of stuffs to happen, changes should and must be made. i would reconsider.
cheers.

.THURSDAY.140509.

i just love my blog song la! haha.

anyhoo. i didn't went to school yet again today. and as always, knowing azharmirzan, the only available reason for his absenteesm from classes is due to him waking up late. idiot me. seriously. someone should really give a one good smack on my face to wake me up. prft. if i ever get a debarment letter from school, i seriously think i deserve that shit. damn it. ugh.

now, i wanna dance badly. and my definition of dance is not like you know, those dance you do at clubs and stuffs but dance as in dancing with a crew. and not any kind of dance but hip hop dance that chris brown, usher, neyo, justin timberlake did. yea. cool huh? i admire that kinda dance. stiff but smooth. just nice. haha. should i apply for dance classes? i don't know. i have the intention to do so but worried if it might cost a bomb. prft. oh well, shall check on net soon.

i'm off already.

cheers baybeh! (:

.THURSDAY.140509.

random.
i don't wanna school anymore.
my heart and places are not in info-comm.
having to study physics is such a torture.
damn it.
life is cruel.

.THURSDAY.140509.

0245am.
it's raining outside.
good weather i supposed.
but still,
i can't sleep.
fuck it.

.THURSDAY.140509.

physics is such a total goner. like seriously. i need to brush up on my tecniques of memorising really badly. i've been forgetting things really fast even when i pay to my fullest attention to what my lectures had to mumble about, it amazed me to how things in my head vanishes off very quickly whenever lessons ended. this shouldn't be happening. not at all. cause you know, in physics, every chapter links with the other. and if i'm lost with one chapter, there goes the other. kinda irritating yea? i know. prft.

anyhoo. school ended at 3pm just now. i got my butt off to jp before heading for home majorly because i need to get myself a brand new earpiece. i've been using a earpiece that is only available to hear on one side of it and not the other. and damn. it annoys me like shit. so yup. bought a philips brand. didn't really like it though cause the loudness is not up to my expectations. prft. but oh well. on a brighter note, i got myself a new earpiece baybeh! haha.

i met jojo around 7pm. and only did adem tagged along at 8pm. we went lakepark (after ages of not heading down to that beautiful scenary) to chill, kill time and stuffs. it was really a last minute planning. well, you see, i had an off-day in the early morning just now. and the emotional feeling then drags till noon. so, in between that hours, i actually text jojo if she wanna head down to lakepark. and since she agreed with the plan, we made our meeting up timing and all. (:

blablabla, we went home nearly 12am and here i am, blogging. (:

cheers! (:

.WEDNESDAY.130509.

i woke up late for school yet again just now. this is seriously becoming a habit which i should and must remove in my list. i mean, look at it this way. im not a pro in physics. and nor im good in vjp either. having to lose even a minute of the lesson means super much to me. cause in my life, every minute counts. prft.

i told mar to have a new daily routine job in her life which is of course, pathetically, to call and wake me up every morning. i wouldn't think it would be a big issue for her cause you know, we always head down to school together. and furthermore, since her house is located somewhere in boon lay, the alarm time to wake up would be not much of a different with the time i have and had to wake up. haha! so mar, do your thang!

kinda tired right now. eyelids are killing me. i'll blog just about what i have to tomorrow alright?

till then; cheers!

and oh! listen to the new song in my blog. damn nice. (:

.TUESDAY.120509.

i know i promised to blog about ahmad's birthday gathering a few days ago but hell, shit happens. i got caught up with work and stuffs. furthermore, schedules for last week kinda tight for me you see.
but well, on the brighter note, i'm ranting about them right now. (:

there you go.
ahmad's birthday gathering was love. the dishes he cook are two thumbs up. like seriously. i mean, i can still remember how the taste was like going through in my mouth and through my throat. yes. that good.
well, of course. what do you expect from a shatec student? haha.
oh well. nothing much to elaborate. overall, the gathering was nice. (:

.FRIDAY.080509.

i'll blog about ahmad's birthday gathering tomorrow.
anyhoo, i didn't went to school just now. pathetic i know. it has only been nearly 4 weeks of school and already i didn't attend to school for 4 times. spoilt child. really. haha. well, it's not like as though i didn't wanna turn up for school or something but unfortunately, i woke up damn late la! journey from pioneer to paya lebar eats roughly around 45mins. and the waiting-for-bus, walking-to-school routine already took earliest, 15mins. and to round up the total time taken will roughly took about 1hr15mins. right? haha.

lesson supposed to start at 12pm just now. which then simply means that i had to get out of the house latest 1045am. but hell, i woke up at 1030am just now. and to think of the total time i need to bathe, iron my shirt, wax my hair, pack my hair, oh damn it. best solution whenever this kinda thing happens is to go back to sleep and not to think much about it. haha. i think shfiqah should've experience this kinda thing alot of time in her secondary school days. am i not right shafiqah? lol. mind me bestfriend. (:

nothing much happened today. only on the fact that dafiqa darling came over to my house and chilled for a few minutes. haha. that's about it la. (:

.THURSDAY.070509.

i wanted to blog about christmas and new year's outing i had with my bffs but how unfortunately, pictures been deleted accidentaly by yours truly me. so yup, won't be blogging about it. at least not until i have those pictures from jojo of course. haha.

anyhoo. pictures above are of a random outing i had during one of the march holidays. i was prctically damn freaking bored and planned an outing together with jojo and adem. initially, the plan was to head down to sentosa and do something different. which is of course, sight-seeing and picture taking. but how unfortunately, it rains cat and dog and yup, plan was changed and we decided to chill at mindcafe. it was a nice hang out. more of like catching up with what had been happening around us since school holidays began.
games choosen are not that familliar and mind you, we actually asked one of the waiter there to teach us on how to play the board game and stuffs. haha.

personally, to my perception, the price over there are quite reasonable. at least that is what i thought. not that expensive la. haha. oh whatever to that.
anyway, we were kinda rich on that particular day cause we actually rode home by cab. haha! i don't really know how much the taxi fair cost cause i wasn't the last to drop down. but it definitely should be a bomb cause it was past midnight when we took the cab. (:
oh wells, i had a great outing that day. every minute spend was loved and damn it my bffs really made my day. (: