.THURSDAY.300709.

in a matter of minutes,

i'll be meeting my secondary school preetyhead bestfriend,

nurshafiqah sahar.

and damn i can't wait! haha.

jangan lambat eh juboh!

cheers! (:

.THURSDAY.300709.

new song.

save the hero by beyonce knowles.

so like it, love it, hate it, whatever.

just enjoy.

cheers.

now, for real. goodnight.

(:

.THURSDAY.300709.

i've type about something which had been bothering me ever since i came home right after meeting up with mar at starbucks just now but decided not to publish them up. i mean, whats the point of embarrasing youself to the extend when you've already been embarrassed about it? seriously. if its only gonna make a big impact to one party, then i shall just be a good by not saying anything. haha. afterall, you need two hands to clap.
sooooooooo, lets drop everything and be happyyyyyyyyy!

haha hehe haha hooo!

goodnightttttttt! (:

.THURSDAY.300709.

to be honest, i am very particular with the junk foods that im stuffing up into my mouth ever since i lost like nearly up to 30kg. junk food like chocolates, ice cream, tibits are strictly forbidden and that i can only enter them into me once in awhile. carbohydrates are rarely touch-able cause if for instance, i dont do any exercising, that carbohydrate would then turned into fats. apart from rice, things i rarely eat are also foods that produce fats such as, chicken, beef, all those fried fingers licking. and when i say fried fingers licking, i mean nuggets, fried chicken, french fries and all. so if for instance, you were to ask me, what do i usually eat? i would say, sandwich. sandwich for one day and thats that. plain water are majorly being swallowed cause when it made my tummy bloated, looking at the big tummy, i then dont feel like eating even though it kills when hunger strikes.

but to think about it again, whats the point? really. whats the major point im trying to prove exactly? starve myself to death? turn anorexic? ugh. i dont know. not being able to stuff your favorites into your mouth is not gonna make a person happy. not at all. and since im feeling a little bit heartbroken and all due to something that the world should'nt know, i've decided for tomorrow would be azhar's fattening day! note: (tomorrow only.) im gonnna junk what i craved for after so long. chocolates, ice cream, finger food, you name it. all will be in my tummy. afterall, eat if it makes you happy. righhhtt? haha.

cheers. goodnight.

.WEDNESDAY.290709.

dearest azharmirzan.
always remember to draw a line,
and know your limits.
goodnight.

.TUESDAY.270709.

yesterday would mark the first monday i went to school ever since school reopens exactly 3 weeks ago. haha. pathetic i know. tell me about it. lol.

anyhoo. like always, typical monday blues are always such a bore. i woke up extremely early yesterday. and when i say early, i meant as early as 6am. but yet, knowing azharmirzan, he can never be punctual for school regardless on whether or not he woke up early. prft. nevermind that. raymond is currently facing with high fever for one week which at first, brings joy to the whole class cause all his vjp lessons would obviously have to be cancelled. but however, news had been spread around for class will be as per normal and niklaus would cover up lessons for the whole week. damn it. prffttt.

i hate info communication. never like a single bit of it. and the feeling of being placed in an environment where you dont wanna be is really, ughhhh. sick! prft.

singapore. forever no freedom of choice.

.SUNDAY.260709.

i am such an idiot. like totally.

todays date marks 26th of july. i was in the cab with my younger sister, on our way to work when suddenly, i just got reminded that today is lynno's 18th birthday. it was nearly 6pm by then. im already like, what the fuck was i thinking?! somekind of a bestfriend i am indeed. prft.

anyhoo lynno darling, im really sorry for the late text message, seriously. i didnt meant to forget your birthday on purpose. i didnt know what came over me. especially when i kept reminding the rest and all that yours is coming, how can i forget right? prft.

Happy 18th Birthday lynno. i know i havent been talking to you and all lately but i guess you should know that i miss you damn freaking much. take care honey. much loves. (:

.FRIDAY.240709.

khairul azhar.

where the toot are you?

you're supposed to online ass!

you're soo dead for keeping me waiting.

pantat. hahaha. (:

.THURSDAY.230709.

nothing much happened in school apart from getting my ass running around the running field for 4 rounds. prft. arif is pathetic. during physics, i told him i can't wait to do p.e. he agrees and asked me to jog with him for 4 rounds. i was targeting for 5 actually but knowing he dont really have the stamina to do so, i agreed. so blablabla, while going on for the 3rd round, he said, "azhar, ni last round eh. aku dah takleh ah." i wanted to laugh out loud. reason being, before p.e and all, he kept on emphasizing on the fact on how he trained very hard only to keep fit during ns. not only ns but kept on mentioning on the fact that he did statistics like pull up, sit up, push up, all those blablabla at home and stuffs almost everyday in his life. im like already whatever cause frankly, im not interested in people boasting about stuffs they shouldnt. especially when he dont have the body figure. haha. so when he told me he was tired, im already like, okayy. and you claimed yourself to be fit. haktoooooooi man! asshole. ahaha! (:
im off. gotta sleep early for school tomorrow. cheers!

and oh oh! happy 17th birthday to gorgeous sister! may your future endeavours be filled with full of joy and laughters always. i love you. (:

.SUNDAY.210709.

i wanna share with you world something.

you wanna know the reason behind why am i always complaining that im freaking tired and lazy to get my butt off for school especially on mondays? take a look on the video that i've uploaded for you lovelies to see. (:

see those long queues? yes. these are the hungry customers for boon lay power nasi lemak (the place where im working at). every weekends, i have to face with hundreds of hungry customers. and mind you, the queue will be as long as this roughly from 6pm onwards till 2am in the morning. sometimes, if our luck is bad, we have to face shits till 3am.
im working in a hawker center, a non air-conditioning environment. and i have to stand throughout the whole night only for these customers. standing is already one thing. hands moving, strech with tongs only to get the food they want, freaking hot oils and rice landing on your hands, fingers and foot is such a torture. seriously.
so you see, if for instance, i woke up late for school the next day, it explains everything. but however, human being-they can only say soo much to not understand how or what obstacles we are facing with.
idiot.

.MONDAY.210709.

damn it la!

i don't wanna school anymore.

i don't want

i don't want

i don't want!

ugh.

.MONDAY.200709.

school is in the matter of hours and yet im still up with my lappy on. prft. i know, it explains everything on why am i always late for school. haha. whatever.

anyhoo, life have been such a bore lately due to not-being-able-to-hang-out-with-family-and-friends situation. not that im happy with the schedules that im facing with now. i mean, come to think of it. when i was in my secondary school days, i have always been those happy with everything i have in life. seriously. im like those other boys who got nothing to worry about. lets say for instance, if my friends asked me out and stuffs, i can always slot my time for them in between my schedules. never were busy. but good things always come to an end. weekdays now are spend schooling. weekends are spend working. and when i say weekends, i meant friday, saturday and sunday. like what the hell i know. earlier on, i was asked to be tagged along to the library with my friends. but invitation had to be turned down majorly only because im working. i know, i shouldn't have gone to work and all. but i can't. i need money for my transportation fares. i need money for my school expenses. and i need money for my own expenses too. i can't possibily rely on my families forever can i? i need to learn to be independent. prft.

life is such a torture.

im off. goodnight.

.WEDNESDAY.150709.

school was shitty today.
raymond called me just to have a one on one talk with regards to my poor attendance.
80% - engineering essentials
83% - lifeskills
90% - SLW (p.e)
93% - visual java programming.
he told me i dont have to worry about vjp and slw. only major worries is to be placed for both ee and lifeskills. and apart from that, he actually mentioned on the fact about how the school would reconsider about giving me a chance on whether or not i deserve to take my examinations. else, debarment letter would be mailed to me personally. prft.
i know i have been skipping school like freaking too often but hell its not like as though i do it on purpose la. woke up late is a not good enough excuse. yea. totally agree with the lecturers but seriously, its easier said cause you guys are not the one facing the overshot hours. i am. and did you guys ever at least once, just ask whats the reason for me waking up late? no. so how can you actually assume that i woke up late on purpose? i did not okay. i work like a dog the night before school only to have enough pocket money for my school expenses la. asses.
human nature - only look at the bad sides of the individual and not the good ones.
oh whatever. no point blogging about it. act like as though my classmates or teachers would view my blog. prft.
i made up my mind. if, for instance, i will be debar from taking my examinations, then i wouldnt wanna continue info-comm. i mean, whats the point? i would still have to retake my first year if i continue. might as well i take my foot off that place right? haha.
im done blogging. (:

.TUESDAY.140709.

im back to blogging.

school hasn't been fine lately. not because the studies are tough or whatsoever but due to the no-interest-in-studying-info-communcation feeling. i have never like that course. not my cup of tea at all. like seriously. and apart from that, mr raymond told me that my attendance is serious shit and already at the border line. which of course, explains that if i were to skip school one more time, i'll be debar from taking my examinations like officially. ugh. well, its not that i don't wanna head down to school or what, but sometimes, waking up in the morning can be such a real torture you know. really. and besides, my friends and teachers in ite macpherson have been such a pain in the ass lately. seriously. hating people is soo not me. but sometimes, they just made me feel likeee ........ oh nevermind.

i seriously dont feel like schooling in ite anymore.

okay. as promised. overdue pictures for my 18th birthday. haha.

now. my birthday outing was a blast. at least thats what i thought larr. though it was a last minute planning but everything still went smoothly. except for the fact on one particular part, while we were having our dinner, dila kinda spill the beans out about the surprise they had planned for me, which is of course, having ahmad bringing a surprise birthday cake for me. fool her. haha!

but nevertheless, even though the the surprise was being spilled out, i still had fun though. only shit is that i had to be off as early as 0830pm for work. prrffttt.

now, enjoy the pictures. (:

there! lovely pictures.
every minute spend was loved. seriously. the gathering, never-ending picture taking. crapness of individual like how sharmeen wore high heels and end up, having blisters on her foot and had to buy a new shoe only for that day. haha. and oh oh! talking about shoe, if you guys look at the pictures above clearly, ahmad and adem actually wore the same shoe. and the wonders goes all about if they went to bought the same shoe togetherr. haha!
oh wells, nothing much to say actually. memories to be kept indeed. (: