.THURSDAY.291211.

so i broke my virginity on heading to jb on my own, meeting these two lovebirds who just returned from their getaway from penang. and after 11 days of not meeting them - especially my facebook boyfriend, i gotta say, i really missed them like crazy. and being able to see them again at jb really spice up my day a whole lot better. of course. how can my day not be brighten when stepping to jb with only the three of us again gave a whole good flashback to the days where we had our short getaway to seremban together during our september holidays. or to be specific actually, it was their september holidays and a few days leave from work for me. hahaha. good times i'd say. really good times.

anyway. im glad you both are home safely. and though i didn't really heard much of how your trip went like, i really hope you guys had one of those lovely couple trip together. just promised me not to go off for too long in future okay? or at least not until i have a partner of my own. i can get pretty lonely sometimes you know. especially when you guys play a major role in my life right now, the feeling sucks a whole lot i'm telling you. like seriously a whole lot. hahaa. nevertheless, welcome back you guys and thanks for making my day. i love you guys. (:

.WEDNESDAY.281211.

so the random feeling of scanning through my old blog post made me realized how much i actually miss blogging, a whole lot. and especially browsing through all the good old pictures i had on my blog - damn. can someone please give a slap on my face so as to remind me for good memories are meant to be jotted down somewhere already? haha. i'm guessing now that i should get back on track with blogging cause i'll be having more lovely outings, events, memories to be treasured especially ever since i've been enlisted for national service. i gotta say, my weekends will always filled with beautiful people and outings.

and yes. every young singaporean men have to serve the nation one day and unfortunately enough, i've been serving the national police force nearly two months now. prft. never mind that. i'll elaborate when time are not really tied up like now. apart from that, blog darling, just like the time i served soonsteel international, be prepared to be filled with lots of complaints, whining, and all those emotional rant in time to come okay? cause unfortunately, i'm gonna hate ns just as much as i hate soonsteel. even worst actually. i don't know. haha.

anyway. for now, i'm guessing my first post shall only be about how much i missed blogging and about me coming back to this whole blogging world. so look forward for my next post okay? and don't you worry dear blog, i'll blog even more wild(er) stuffs, and even sexier pictures in future - since no one really reads my blog anymore - therefore, i think i can be pretty open with whatever i wanna rant about. haha. till then, good night! (:

thursday; 17022011

there are alot of things which i wish to rant out but havent got any chance of doing so recently due to the not-so-sure where to rant out situation until i realise that i do actually have a blog. yea i totally forgotten about it. damn me. prft.

anyway, things hasnt been fine lately for god damn knows what reason. ive been feeling alot more lonelier ever since i broke up with khai and i dont like it. yes, another relationship failure. screw me up already right? sigh. i initiate the broke up and felt guilty about it until i realised he's actually enjoying life, partying almost all weekend long. yea. people change in time to come but didnt know it would take within such a short period of time. and to think about how he took the broke up period real fast, im guessing i should too right? yea, that was what my friends told me to. we broke up on the 27th jan and he's already enjoying life right now. to be honest, im perfectly fine with khai having a hell of his time and all. but what still bothers me was the fact that he is in contact with my ex before him, raihan. and to think about how i used to share alot of stuffs with regards to how i detest him; seeing him contacting raihan is just not right for me. im not saying that raihan is a bad person cause afterall, he really makes a good friend but come to think about it, we used to feel the same way towards raihan. and now you're already friends with him? what the hell.

and and apart from that, khai used to cry alot about us being on the rock. seriously. all day long was tears and tears and tears. but within less than two weeks, he's already having a new affair. yes, a new affair. like zomg! that is just not right. not right at all. i mean, come to think of how you used to say about how anyone wouldnt be able to replace my place and now you're having an affair? somebody please slam me already! prftt. and now im thinking if the tears he brought out for me were crocodile tears. sigh. nevermind.

im guessing i should admit here that yes, im jealous. im jealous and extremely disappointed.

Define life and how do we grow without existence of love?

Life is a journey we must accept and that pain and confusions are just temporary. If you are going through failure, don't give up. Cause every failure can be a stepping stone to something better. However, there is no life without the existence of love. And one cannot love without existence of life. So if you ask me, i would say one needs both love and life to live a fulfilling life.

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MONDAY, 11012011

11 days since 2011 and nothing much really happen lately. apart from the fact that i just realized my knowledge in english is getting way weaker than usual, besides that; i doubt there's anything else happen. and i came to a solution to read and blog more in order to improve my english knowledge. seriously. just the other day, some 17 year old youngster came up to me and enquire about some donation issues with such a perfect english usage and accent being used and i was like... what trash are you talking about? haha. okay im kidding. of course i do understand what she was rambling about but i was impress with the good chimp words she used. seriously. i dont even use very high words during communication. she really blew me away. and that was when i realized i really need to buck up on my english. haha.

so im back to blogging! (:

.TUESDAY.301110.

im gonna resume my daily routine of blogging again pretty soon.
im pissed with school. working life hasnt been fair. and my life hasnt been a bliss. well, somehow i guess. but i'll blog everything pretty soon okay? i promise.
for now, i got lesson to concentrate on. so bye.