.TUESDAY.181207.

the plan to meet up with loves at 11am later is postpone to 12pm. yes. shafiqah texted all of us and told us all to meet up at banquet by 12pm. pathetic. now i got roughly half an hour more to go before the meeting time and i swear i don't really know what to do. hais. sharmeen is not tagging along by the way. yes. that bitch declined my invitation. pathetic her. ughx. whatever.

anyway, im still worried. and im still nervous. im still hoping and yes i am still. im scared. i really am. i kept on thinking the negative and not the positive. i kept on thinking that i am going to fail and not passing. why? my dream... is that a sign for me? am i really not going to make it? am i really going to be a huge dissapointment to everyone? ughr. i don't know. lets leave it all to fate now shall we? let just all hope that i'll eventually, head up to sec 5. i will. i hope. sigh.