Oh god. I got super nervous while doing N level Maths paper 1 just now. Damn nervous. I kept on reading and repeating the whole sentence over and over again and again and i swear, i wasn't able to understand still. It really pissed me off and i kept on biting my finger very hard, even though im fasting. I scratched my head hardly and was sweating like one fuck like as if the sun was directly a few centimetres away from me. The last 15 mins, i had my prayers done, and i kept on thinking how selfish i am to only pray when i really need it the most. It's so wrong. I know. Done prayers, i still got lots more question to catch up on. I cool myself down for 5 minutes and continued after that.
Left only 5 minutes and i then realise the paper was damn easy. I was rushing all the way till the bell rung. I wasn't able to finish 9 whole question. What the fuck. i know. Ughx. Pathetic. I hate feeling nervous. I hate feeling restless. I hate sweating. And i hate fasting and having exams at the same time. I cant drink water when i need them the most. And I cant concentrate. I just cant. Ughx!
Whatever it is right now, im only hoping for miracle. Dear god, miracles do happen don't they? They do happen right? Please, Will you let my papers pass with flying colours? Will you? I really need below than 10 points. Really! So please, im begging you, make miracles happen. Please! Hais. (:
I have to help sis with cooking right now. Later after break fast, im studying with Adem they all. At 8 or 9, im with Shafiqah, Dafiqa, Sharmeen and Syafiq. Be home before 12am. I still got lots to study. I haven't start on my history. Nor have i started on science. My art? Dont ask. I have lots of things to do. But so little time given. Ughx. You know, N level is really giving me the pressure. And i swear, i don't like it. AT ALL.
Whatever it is, im hoping for miracles. Bye people.(:
*oh ya. I've found my folder and my pictures. The old pictures i mean. New one still under maintanence. I cant seem to transfer any new pictures to the comp yet. But i will. Soon. Bye.(:
